24 May 2012-2nd Anniversary

     Tanpa sedar,, dah genap 2 tahun bekerja di sini...  satu tempoh yang agak lama tapi masa yang di lalui terasa singkat.. Terlalu banyak perkara yang berlaku dalam tempoh 2 tahun berada di sini... suka duka dan sebagainya..semua nya telah di lalui dengan pelbagai kejutan,, haha,,

    People always said,,semakin jauh perjalanan, semakin luas pemandangan,,, aku agreed 100 percen ngn statement tu,, dalam tempoh 2 tahun ni je,, banyak dah pengalaman yg di perolehi,,, banyak juga ragam manusia yang di temui dan di pelajari..sume nya menjadikan aku seorang yang lebih berhati2 dlm meniti arus kemodenan hidup..
aku bukanlah terlalu sempurna untuk menilai setiap ragam mereka2 di sekeliling,,, aku sekadar menilai untuk diri sendiri,,, walaupun kadang kala telahan aku jauh tersasar dari realiti,,, hihi...

Seronok nye berada dalam organisasi sekarang,,tetapi banyak perkara yang perlu di kaji selidik utk mengelak permasalahan di masa akn datang kerana kita bekerja bukan untuk setahun dua,, tetapi most of the time in life, we spend for the office,,, hihi.. memang dah lumrah kehidupan mcm tu,,.kerja dan kerja dan kerja,,
satu yang aku suka tentang hidup aku sekarang ialah berada di organisasi yang penuh dengan warna warni,,, gelak ketawa dan cabaran,,walaupun sekadar coolie ,namun pelaksanaan terhadap tugas seharian sangat menyeronokkan,, memang tak dinafikan,, kadang kala muka ketat stress sampai kena maki ngn bos ,,p itu sume temporary je,,, memang xsimpan dalam hati pon,,, sentap dalam sehari je,,esok dah back to normal..hihihi

This is me after 2 years

  "This is me after 2 years,, everyone said im getting big already..haha. what can i say. i just make a confession that im totally changed... nothing much different actually. I might be someone new with my appearance today but deep inside my heart,, im just the same like before...i'm more mature than a few years ago-that for sure..."


Semakin ramai kawan yang ditemui,,semakin ramai jugak kawan yang menghilang,, hehe,, biasa la tu,,, cuma yang menjadi penghubung zaman sekarang ialah social network je,, Luckily we have facebook, twitter, myspace, tagged, multiply, blogger n so on... banyak sgt dah... dulu cuma ada chatting mirc je zmn aku sekolah,,, haha,,tu pun gigih nak turun pegi siber cafe semata2 nak chatting,,lols,,,

Bukan senang nak puaskan hati semua orang ni,,, lagi2 lah kalau yang rapat ngn kita,,cket je mistake,,terus nak sentap,,, so kena berhati2 lah dalam pergaulan,, sebab aku tau aku jahat mulut jugak sometime,,haha.. Jadi lah diri sendiri kerana ia akan lebih di hargai daripada cuba meniru orang lain dlm usaha menutup kelemahan diri,, -itu hanya akan menambahkan rasa benci org ramai dan akan memalukan diri sendiri.

so far keje di organisasi sekarang ni adalah sangat2 menyeronokkan,, selain dapat duit sendiri,, skop keje nya pon agak menarik ,,walaupun sometime aku jadi ular,,haha,,,, hopefully aku akan keje lama di organisasi ini,, syukur kepada Allah kerana masih memberikan aku ruang n peluang untuk menikmati kehidupan hidup...

"Alhamdulillah n thank you Allah for giving me a chance to feel the happiness in every single breath on this wonderful world".

THANK YOU CIKGU

Time's running very fast... tanpa sedar, dah 6 tahun aku menamatkan zaman sekolah,,, last aku guna uniform sekolah pada tahun 2006.. terasa mcm dah tua sangat dah sekarang ni..haha...
apa pun... masa xkan kembali,,member2 batch aku pon sume dah ada kerjaya masing2 dan kebanyakannya memilih profesion nak jadi Guru,,, aku sendiri juga pernah simpan cita2 nak jadi cikgu cuma rezeki aku lebih kepada profesion lain. 

16 Mei memang dah jadi simbolik bagi cikgu2 ni..asal 16 mei je,,org dah tau dah,,hari tu hari guru.. So untung la kengkawan aku yang dah jadi cikgu sekarang,, mesti banyak hadiah bertimbun kat meja...selalunya cikgu2 yang garang tu la yang jarang dapat hadiah...hahaha.. bagi cikgu yg punyai pakej lengkap tu memang dah confirm dah banyak peminat... bertuah lah korang yang cantik2 n macho2 mcm aku,,hahahaha..

As i remember when i was young... every time hari guru,, aku pasti merengek ngn mak aku,,, minta duit utk belikan hadiah untuk cikgu,,, memang dah jadi rutin aku pada setiap hari guru...suka tgok wajah cikgu yg hepi je dapat hadiah dari anak murid.. walaupun hanya sebatang pen merah,,haha,,sebab pen merah tu akan di gunakan selalu utk marking paper,,, zmn sekarang ni memang jauh sgt dari dulu,, xmustahil kalo cikgu2 akan dapat hadiah ipad , iphone , dan sebagainya,,haha..

Kenangan yg aku xbole lupa pada setiap hari guru ni,,, bila disuruh buat persembahan kat depan guru,, walaupun malu dan jadi bahan gelak kat student2 lain,,tapi at the end, aku dapat pujian dari cikgu2,, mengampu lah tu,,haha..

Aku bukan lah student yang baik sangat pon,kekadang sering jugak gaduh2 ngn cikgu,,kurang ajar ngn cikgu,escape kelas dsb.. bergantung kepada kekuatan cikgu di dalam kelas,,kalo cikgu yang xstrict sgt tu,mulalah aku amik kesempatan dlm kebaikan die,,selalunya cikgu perempuan lah yg akn jadi mangsa,,, hehe,, mas aku form 6,, everytime kelas muet dan economy..aku pasti akn escape ke surau,, n tido sampaila waktu rehat...patut pon result stpm aku cukup2 makan je,,,hihi

banyak nye kenangan zaman sekolah ni,, kalo aku bole rewind balik zaman student ni,,aku nak kembali semula guna uniform ni dan sure aku akn jadi budak yang rajin,,haha,, xnak nakal2 dah.. zaman spm pulak, lain kes,, aku budak baik,,p malas sgt belajar,penah group aku kena halau dari kelas fizik sebab xfocus pada experimen yg dibuat,, tebal nye muka masa tu,,, syukur la sume subjek pass masa tu..x la segan sgt kalo terserempak ngn guru kat luar,,haha.. paling fobia ngn subject sejarah, sampai satu tahap tu terkantoi kat cikgu sejarah buat homework add math masa cikgu potpet mengajar kat depan,,, nasib baik la sejarah aku bole score walaupun aku xsuka sejarah,,,

terima kasih cikgu sebab tahan ngn karenah anak2 murid yang pelbagai,,, memang di akui,,menjadi cikgu bukan lah sesuatu yang mudah,,, cikgu tu ibarat second parent masa kat sekolah,, nak mengajar dan menjaga student dalam satu masa..,sungguh murni profesion guru ni,,tanpa guru,,sape lah aku yang sekarang ni.. walaupun sestengah cikgu tu aku benci sgt2,, p hakikatnya mereka telah mencurah ilmu yg bermanfaat sgt2...
Pernah juga terserempak ngn cikgu2 ni,,bila aku ajak minum2 ,,dorang segan lak,, padahal ank murid cuma nak hargai cikgu2 je,,walaupun cikgu2 xminta tu sume,,p aku ikhlas nak bawa dorang ni makan2 n minum2 ni,,,


Selamat Hari Guru buat guru..terutamanya yang pernah mengajar aku dari sekolah rendah sampai menengah 
Cikgu Razak( (Math), Cikgu Nazrin (BM),Cikgu Soegirol(Sains), Cikgu Nur khairunnisa( Math), Ustaz Zamrud(PAI), Ustaz Syukri(PAI), Mdm Cita Cassiana Henry (Cikgu EST), Mdm Khoo Hung Kiong(AddMath), Cikgu Awang(Fizik), Cikgu Hayati (Kimia), Cikgu Aman (Kejuruteraan Awam), Cikgu Liaw(Lukisan Kejuruteraan), Cikgu Wan(Sejarah), Mdm Ng (English), dan ramai lagi lah,,, sume yang penah mengajar aku,, tq sebab menjadi cikgu yang baik,,, Semoga terus success dalam mendidik anak bangsa..

Aku xpandai dalam menulis puisi khas utk dihadiahkan kepada cikgu2 ni...aku juga bukan lah diantara student terbaik yang nak dibanggakan,,, aku cuma mahu hargai guru2 aku,,dan inilah cara aku,hehe...Tiada hadiah yang lebih berharga melainkan doa dari anak murid buat guru-guru yang di sanjungi,,moga para guru terus maju dan sentiasa sihat serta mendapat keberkatan di sisi Allah SWT.

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Hepi Mother's Day to My Mom

"Number One For Me"

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do

And all the pain I put you through

Mama now I'm here for you

For all the times I made you cry

The days I told you lies

Now it's time for you to rise

For all the things you sacrificed

[Chorus:]

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone

I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mum I'm all grown up now

It's a brand new day

I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

Mum I'm all grown up now

And it's not too late

I'd like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand

Your famous line

About the day I'd face in time

'Cause now I've got a child of mine

And even though I was so bad

I've learned so much from you

Now I'm trying to do it too

Love my kid the way you do 

[Chorus]

You know you are the number one for me [x3]

Oh, oh, number one for me 

There's no one in this world that can take your place

Oh, I'm sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh

I will use every chance I get

To make you smile, whenever I'm around you

Now I will try to love you like you love me

Only God knows how much you mean to me

[Chorus]

You know you are the number one for me [x3]

Oh, oh, number one for me

This song is specially dedicated to My Beloved Mom

Rabiah Haji Gani

Hepi Mother's Day

May All Happiness Always Be By Your Side With Blessing Of Allah

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NUMBER ONE FOR ME

Every 13th of May , everyone will busy themselves with the preparation for Mother's Day. 
Sempena Mother's Day ini,, nukilan ini adalah khas untuk Bonda tercinta 

RABIAH BINTI HAJI GANI

Dia lahir pada 7 Februari 1955. Di besarkan dalam keluarga yang sederhana di sebuah perkampungan baru.. Merupakan anak ke dua dalam adik beradik. Pendidikan ibu tidak lah tinggi sepermana ibu- ibu lain,,, my mom belajar sampai darjah 4 je... sebab die terpaksa berhenti krn factor kewangan, parent dia on that time cume bole support abang die je,,,p satu perkara yang aku respect kat mami.. die memang hebat dalam ilmu matematik,, kalo bab2 pengiraan, aku memang jauh ketinggalan lah,,hehe..
Mami telah mendirikan rumah tangga dengan jejaka kacak dari Marudi Miri pada usia 28 tahun..kisah cinta mereka mesti romantik pada ketika itu,,,hahaha...mybe pada ketika itu, kawen pada usia tersebut ,sudah terlalu lambat, tapi mami tetap tabah hadapi hidup dan terus melayari kehidupan bersama suami tercinta. As we know, hidup zaman dulu bukan lah sehebat hidup zaman sekarang. apabila kami adik beradik seorang demi seorang lahir, banyak perkara yang perlu di titik beratkan, mami menceburi terlalu banyak bidang pekerjaan demi mencari rezeki..mami pernah kerja sebagai penoreh  getah, kilang papan, pembantu rumah, berhuma dan sebagainya..
Mami memang diva bagi kami,tidak pernah kenal erti penat ,lelah dan jemu dalam membesarkan kami adik beradik,,,Hidup berjauhan dengansuami tercinta bukan lah sesuatu perkara yang mudah,semua urusan rumah dan anak diletakkan sepenuhnya di bawah bahu mami... ayah terpaksa bekerja jauh, memakan masa bertahun,, paling singkat pon, ayah akan balik setelah setahun merantau,,urusan kiriman duit pon hanya melalui pos, brapa banyak lah gaji pada zaman dahulu, mami bekerja keras untuk menyara kami... mami memang tabah,,, mami terpaksa menanggung hutang.. tapi satu perkara yang aku tahu,, mami tidak pernah membiarkan kami semua kebuluran walaupun dirinya sendiri terpaksa megikat perut asalkan kami tidak kelaparan, hebatnya pengorbanan seorang ibu.
Masuk ke zaman persekolahan. beban ibu makin bertambah,,, ibu terus bekerja keras, demi menyekolahkan kami adik beradik,, mujur ayah pada ketika itu sering balik dan berusaha mencari pekerjaan di kawasan yang terdekat, dengan bakat yang ada pada mami, mami bersengkang mata membuat kuih muih untuk jualan di kampung . aku akui, perkara paling malu bila aku terpaksa bangun pagi hujung minggu utk menjaja kuih muih di kampung... kadang kala mami bising jugak kerana aku memberontak dengan kehidupan sbegitu. mami terlalu tabah dalam mencari rezeki.
dlm masa yang sama, mami berbakat dalam menjahit baju. hanya mami yang pakar dalam jahitan baju di kampung pada masa tersebut, dengan mesin jahit usang dirumah tersebut, mami gigih bersengkang mata untuk menyiapkan tempahan org ramai, rezeki mami akan bertambah pada bulan puasa kerana mami akan menerima tempahan hingga ratusan. seronok nya xterkata kerana tempahan yang banyk itu akan menghasilkan pulangan yang banyak,,aku lagilah seronok,minta itu dan ini.., mami selalu abaikan kerana apa yang aku minta itu hanya membazir duit, mami tegas dalm membesarkan kami. Apa yang pasti, setiap kali hari raya mami tidak akan membiarkan kami beraya dengan baju lama,,, pasti ada baju raya setiap tahun, walaupun terpaksa menyiapkannya dipagi raya,,asalkan mami nampak aku segak dengan baju baru di pagi raya,walaupun aku penah rasa kecewa dan terasa dikongkong..namun hasil nya kini aku telah menjadi seperti hari ini,, aku bangga dengan mami..
terlalu banyak perkara yang ibu buat,,, tidak terhitung banyaknya,,, aku hampir kehilangan ibu dan ayah serentak apabila mereka terlibat dalam kemalangan jalan raya pada tahun 2010..pada masa tersebut, aku baru memulakan kerja dalam sektor government,, sukar unruk dibayangkan seandainya mereka pergi secepat itu,,syukur alhamdulillah Allah masih panjangkan usia kedua nya... aku masih nampak kesan lebam di muka ibu hingga sekarang.. ayah apatah lagi,, sejak kemalangan itu, personalitinya terus berubah,,,
syukur,,aku masih punyai waktu untuk membalas budi mami dan ayah... pengorbanan ibu dan ayah terlalu besar,,, di saat ibu dan ayah terlantar di hospital.. baru lah aku sedar dan takut akan kehilangan mereka,,ternyata aku masih perlukan mami dan ayah dalam hidup,.
ada banyak lagi yang ingin dikongsi tentang ibu,,, memang x terhitung banyaknya cerita pasal ibu,,, apa yang di kongsikan ini hanya 1% dari penhgorbanan ibu,,,  that My MOM,,, Mami ..U ARE ALWAYS THE NUMBER ONE FOR ME.... I LOVE U MAMI,, FOREVERMORE AND ALWAYS LOVE TILL THE END OF LIFE AND BEYOND...SELAMAT HARI IBU BUAT MAMI,,FOR ME,,EVERY DAY IS MOTHER'S DAY FOR U MAMI,,, Muahhhhhhhhhhh kat Mami,,, tiada hadiah terindah buat mami melainkan doa agar Mami sentiasa sihat dalam menjalani kehidupan seharian... dan mendapat keberkatan hidup dari Allah .. amin,,, 

Emak... Mama... Mami... Ibu... Mom... Bonda... tak kira apa pun gelaran yang kita guna kan utk memanggil ibu, ia tetap mempunyai maksud yang sama.. dia lah yang melahirkan kita serta membesarkan kita sampai ke tahap ini...

*** seperti yang aku selalu katakan,, aku bukan hebat dalam penulisan,,, tapi aku suka menulis***

Nukilan ikhlas khas untuk bonda 

Sekeping Hati Seorang Insan Bernama Anak...

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DEATH NOTE

12 May 2012

Life as we know it, everyone has their own life stories. As for me, I have my own story n I’m sure that this thing happen once in a blue moon. 12 May is such a wonderful combination of number but for me, it was totally different.
 It was funny sometimes whenever I reach to the month of May in every year, but what can I say, I’m just a normal human being like others. Sometimes I feel like the whole world is going to against me all the time. It was so hard to believe but my hearts n minds could not stop thinking n always keep thinking all the time,
I might be one of the lucky person that been given some kind of miracle. Lets the story begin..

        As I remember in the year of 2000, when I was thirteen, I had a great time at home with family as usual as others did. I’m a form 1 student at the nearest secondary school which is located not really far from my hometown. I’ve forgotten about the date actually but the beautiful nightmares that I had that night would never forget n haunt my life until now. It seems like a sign of final destination of life that asked me to prepare myself of facing my unpredictable future life.

It was wonderful night at home as usual. After finish doing my homework, I go for sleep. As my routine every night, I will read something before sleep such as, novels, magazines, and comic coz once I start reading, it will keep me sleep easily. Suddenly, my surrounding turn to different sight that I never expect. There a lot of people with different character, skin colour n size. After a minute, I could see a bunch of people that I seem to know them well enough, yeah!!! that's my mom n dad. I shouted at them loudly but then they look at me with different sight. I feel something strange is just happen to me at that time, but at the same time, I could feel that my fear at that moment had slowly decreases. There’s no more fear coz my parent is around. I just smiling at my parent n they reply back. I tried to talk with them but the sound of crowded people surrounding make me hardly to talk even couldn’t hear my own voice. I tried again n again with a loud voice in order to let them hear my call but then, my surrounding directly turn to white n the crowded people with noisy surrounding had gone and left me all of a sudden. I start to feel nervous again. I’m all alone at that time when I heard the sound of someone walking straight to me. His look were totally clean with white Jubah n serban on his head. He stand very close in front of me n smile to me. I smiled back to him in order to cover up my nervous feeling. I could feel my body is sweating a lot b’coz I had never been in that situation for the whole my life. Then, the old white man start to says something towards me;

‘’ Young man, you will die soon’’. There’s no hard feeling from me at time and I asked him back with simple question “when”. He smiled again n answered me back ‘’ 12 May’’. I asked again “which year?” n he’s answer “this year”. Then I just looked at him with silent mode and no more question. Speechless. 

A minute later, i could see his look were slowly fading n left me alone, I try to chase after him but I have no more ways to go. I shouted at him with a small of hope that he will return back to me. There's no response from him. I call him again n again but it doesn't change anything until he completely disappeared from my eyes eventually, but then, my surrounding changed. I could feel myself in another situation. I slowly open up my eyes n knowing that I just had a nightmare. I looked at my watch, 2.00 am. I sat on my bed with a sorts of feelings, my minds is full of question. I wiped my forehead with my hand and my mouth non-stop saying YaAllah. Then, I opened window in my room wider and looked out at the sky. I smiled to myself when I saw a millions of stars in the sky n slowly continue my sleep..... 

     

After that night, my life is totally changed...I realized myself has been haunted with that beautiful nightmare and I couldn't erase it completely from my minds. It was always appear in my minds whenever I come to the month of May. I feel like the most idiot person in this world. I tried so many times to avoid myself from thinking about this but I just can’t.
       It’s doesn’t means I’m scared of death but it’s seem like I’m not ready yet to face all this things. Most people said to me, it was just a dream. But for me, yes it was just a dream but the way I met that old man in my dream is totally different. It might be a sign for me that ask me to prepare myself ready all the time. 
     As a matter of fact, I had ever refer to the Ustaz in my school, n he asked me to ignore the dream. But in my case, I feel so hard to avoid myself from stop thinking n besides it automatically appear in my minds in every year.

As for me... I believe it was just a dream. Allah knows everything. Always keep us close to Allah so that we will safe in the world n hereafter. When the time has come, we will return to Allah. May Allah always bless us in whatever things we do.Believes that Allah had plan the best for us...

*** im not gud in writing actually, but i try my best to share this story***

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CONFESSIONS OF A FALLEN ANGEL

I would like to share to everyone bout this book...

Ronan O’Brien is a Solicitor who specialises on the area of criminal law. He is originally from Dublin but now lives in country Kildare n this is his first book “Confession of a fallen angel”

When the first time I found this book,,, it sound like fairytale stories or kiddo’s story book for sleeping time n whatsoever but when I started viewing and reading from the 1^st pages, I felt something special that kept me to continued again n again just want to know the sequences of the pages till the last pages.

I felt completely in love with this book that kept me to read again for the 2^nd times. 

        Just imagine being cursed with vision of the imminent deaths of the people u love the most. U would do whatever things u could to stop the dreams becoming reality. But, life...as we know it...sometimes it doesn't works as we planned. We planning a lot for the future dreams to come true but at the end of times God will decides what is the best for us. The only God knows our life journey.

          This books is about a little young man growing up his life with a lot of trouble surrounding,,, leaving someone he love the most, always do sacrificing in everything. Struggled him selves to save his beautiful wife from his nightmares that make he put all blames on him eventually. A story that full of conflict in everywhere,,, n I’m sure once u all guys start read this book, it will grip you from the 1^st paragraph.

Everyone must read this book,,, I’ve read it twice n still keep reading all the time. 

I just sharing to promote this book to everyone... maybe some of u have read this book,,, for those who looking for the best love, action,magic,spooky n thriller book ..this is the best one... 

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